2019 - A Brave New Year
I’ve been getting the feeling that time is running short. Really short. I know time has sped up in the past few years, and I’m blaming that on the shifting of the earth’s poles. Even the inuits noticed that the North Star is no longer where it used to be. But even with that being the case, I’m talking about my life personally. Time seems to be running out.
I’ve decided to get a grip, and just sit down and work my ass off.
Will this actually happen? Only time will tell.
I seem to have the time allocated to lots of things other than what I feel I’m supposed to be doing, and although it will take a great shift of habits and at least a half a dozen unimaginable miracles, I’m showing up today. I’ve peeked out behind my safety zone a few times, creating Audible Insights™, writing songs that came from a deep place in my heart and actually recording it for others to hear, cried on stage, shared some of my stories as a guest speaker, but this just scratches the surface.
I’m tired of just getting by. Just getting by with my time – filling the days with the usual “what needs to get done” list and living the same day over and over. I think I’ve finally had enough of living month to month financially, especially at my age. The patterns of my parents have imbedded their money blueprint on my DNA, and I’m going to do my best to rip it out and rebuild financial peace and beauty in its place.
How is that going to happen? Who knows. I rely on God. I’ll let God take over and let Him lay it all out. In the meantime, I’m going to step out into the light, and tell you what it’s like to be me.
I live on this planet with you. I’m the quiet one who is an excellent listener. I’m the one who seems delicate, sensitive and appears very kind and loving. The one who seems to always have it together and has always been a goody two shoes. But do you really know me? Probably not. Do you know what I’ve been through? Very doubtful, since almost nobody knows what my life has been like – simply because I keep a lot of it to myself.
Some of my closest friends know a little about me. They know that I spend most of my days thinking about God, loving God, wishing I could be on the other side with God. I long for God on an hourly basis. The majority of my songs are love songs, prayers, revelations and pleas to God. Most people think I wrote those songs for my husband. I love my husband, but I told him from the very start, my #1 is God. Always has been, always will be. And thankfully, he respects and understands why I feel that way.
So let the blog begin. I think consistency is required for blogs, and I’m going to do the best I can. By the Grace of God, I’ll show up and stand out in the open, where all can see my light, and the darkness that makes it appear so bright. If you are going to be consistently with me and read about who I am, thank you. I’ll keep you in my thoughts as I write, and know that we will both be blessed in the process.