Not a big deal, unless of course, it’s a phobia

I feel my heart racing, knowing that it’s Dec. 31st. I had made a promise to put up my first blog tomorrow, which is the beginning of “exposing myself” to whoever happens to read it. Logic tells me it’s ridiculous to be frightened. There won’t be many people reading it, and it’s not like there’s something truly horrible that I’m admitting to; nothing earth-shattering is going to happen. It’s just the story of my life. And there are a lot more interesting stories out there than mine. Why would this be such a big deal? The only reason it’s a big deal is because there is an unconscious belief somewhere deep within me, that truly believes that if I openly share my story with “just anybody” that

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